Friday, March 10, 2017

What is an alarm clock?

It's been 30 years since I won my last battle against the alarm clock and I'm 30 years old.

Even before the term bipolar gathered all the popularity, I knew I had it. This is not really about the display of my eccentric characters (which I do possess) but about the two kinds of mindset in me - one when I am setting the alarm for 5 AM and the one that completely denies any association with it when it rings.

To add to this misery, all the 'How to be successful' articles lecture about having to start the day early and that's got to be  5 AM not a minute more or less. I don't read those articles to be successful. I read them to make myself acquire, in vain, one good character that I was not born with.

Anyway, I get up to practice meditation and I do sometimes. I slide to one end of the bed and start meditating and before I know it (and I hope it is at least after 10 minutes) I get back to sleeping.

All my efforts to wake up have been failing because -

1. I do not have a motivating plan for workout. No, gym is not motivating if I need to brush my teeth at 5 AM. Not at least at this this stage of laziness.

2. I do not have company to wake up. I don't want to wake up alone and be sorry for myself.

3. I believe in, sometimes very strongly, that there is a tomorrow.

I could overcome these by -

1. Having a packed morning plan.

2. Being committed to the plan.

3. Fear of wasting my life wanting to do something but never working for it.

4. Trying to wake up by 5 AM everyday continuously for one whole month (I believe in training my body clock to work its wonders)

Let's see. Wish me luck!